Before meeting Peter I had become disillusioned with pretty much every aspect of my life. I had lost the ability to truly enjoy myself. Anxiety and depression seemed to be my most common companions. I spent nearly all of my spare time in the gym doing a punishing routine trying to achieve the perfect figure. This left me with little energy to devote to other areas of my life. It was an obsession that had taken over. I had little interest in other pursuits. Invitations from friends were mostly refused so I didn't have to put on an act pretending to be happy when inside I was feeling down or stressed.
My marriage of 18 years was on the brink of collapse. I no longer felt sure of my feelings for my husband and was concerned as to where my future lay. These feelings were partly due to a situation where for years I had played the peacemaker between my husband, sister, and two children. I was always trying to smooth over family upsets that seemed never ending. I felt unable to detach myself from the drama that existed between my husband and sister. I tried hard to create a peaceful environment for the children hoping to shield them from the occasional outbursts of stress and frustration from my husband. Fear of the next upset was always with me. I rarely relaxed and was frequently fighting some sickness. I started to bottle up my feelings of frustration, blaming my husband for most of my problems, and began to lose sight of the fine qualities he possessed. I could only see him as someone who caused me pain, and it didn't take long before he reacted in the same way towards me. To the outside world we had everything, but we both knew we were just going through the motions. Divorce seemed inevitable, which left me feeling so sad and lonely, especially as deep down I knew we had such a beautiful family.
Then as if my divine intervention through working with Peter I was shown a COMPLETELY new way of looking at life; something I could never have possibly conceived. I discovered ME, and with it found that the love for my husband had in fact gone nowhere but was simply hidden under a pile of my own beliefs and habits. My true feelings were in fact as strong as ever. It was my OWN fears and inadequacies that I had been looking through, not his, (or anyone else's for that matter!) We are now happier than we have ever been, and our marriage has been given a whole new lease of life. We take such pleasure in simply spending time together. He expresses thoughtfulness and love I never thought he was even capable of. We have even started e-mailing each other love notes which makes me feel like a teenager all over again! Everyone should get to feel like this. And I can already see how by me finding my true self I am inspiring the same in him. I feel so free, it’s as if I have emerged from under a dark black cloud into brilliant white sunshine. The feeling of sadness has been replaced by one of complete contentment and peace. I am an altogether different person - I am me, and for the first time love who I am. I no longer worry about the future, preferring to let things take their natural course. I still go to the gym but only when I feel like it, preferring to spend time with friends having fun. Better still, I have lost 14 pounds (effortlessly), and since saying goodbye to stress, my family and friends say I look 10 years younger, and I have to agree. (Boy did I just save a fortune on creams and lotions!) My husband and sister still quarrel from time to time but that’s their choice. My life has been transformed in so many ways I could go on and on ... I have more energy, more fun, better sleep, am more productive, and feel truly alive. I will be eternally grateful for what Peter has given me - the life I was always looking for. No more hope of “one day” ... my life is now, and it’s truly fabulous!
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